The Ravenous Bear & My Uncle

Lost two games of Chess earlier. My excuse (because I always have one) is I was distracted and blundered. I was 2-3 moves away from locking mate against someone rated +2000 when I misfired a piece in the wrong direction causing an avalanche of dominoes in a downward spiral towards defeat. It reminds me of when I was a young man (15 years younger than I am now) I use to play against my Uncle. Playing against him is what brought my game to the level it's at today. One day the board just took on a new dimension & I saw the 64 squares in their entirety. The Queen winked at me, the Knight neighed, the Bishop tipped his hat and it was all systems go from that point on. Well during one match I made a mistake and I said to my Uncle ,"Ah man I made a mistake. You win." My Uncle looked at me and said (I will never forget his words) "If nobody ever blundered, nobody would ever lose." Was an awesome revelation not only on the Chessboard but also in Life. Would be a gift & a curse of knowledge though because now all performances could be measured by the amount of mistakes you made. And any loses due to those mistakes could eat at your psyche like a ravenous bear at a christian summer camp picnic. So thanks Uncle for instilling the notion that you must be Perfect to Win! (at the highest levels sometimes you do....) It has given me a tyrannical view of gamesmanship that I use to this day. = r.i.p. Unc - u were the man...

Fight the Good Fight

I wrote this the other night, posted it but took it down bcuz I didnt want to be a downer. On the contrary I hope it may uplift the spirit of someone that can relate to it. It is about addiction. Not the most pleasant of subjects but something I have been struggling with for the past 10-15 years depending on the poison. There a quite a few. Being bestowed with something of the gift of gab, and the uncanny ability to articulate thought onto paper, I speak for all those afflicted. If people ever discriminate, shun, or even remove you from their lives due to your affliction, keep your head up and hope for a better day. It is a powerful disease. And a disease it is. But one with a Cure, and the Remedy is Positivity, Hope, Courage, Resilience, Wisdom, Strength & Honor (Ron) and of course the Love of Family & Friendship of Good Friends. So please don't give up the Fight. Trust Me. You are not alone. Today I am Sober. It is a Miracle. I hope the Miracle lasts....


==== Can you arise from the deepest, darkest depths. Can you conquer the Demons that have held you back, yet taught you the Full Circle. Now you understand the Darkness. Can you understand the Light? Will you soar like a Phoenix from the Ashes? Or will you join the Unnamed One in a Kingdom of Unforgiving Sorrow. A Chosen few have been selected to help guide you. Will you heed their sage Advice? Or Troop Alone like a Madman in the Jungle, until only You & "God" stand before each other. A "Rock & RoLL Poet", few really know it. Sometimes acting without rhyme, logic or reason. Sometimes thinking so many moves ahead I confuse myself. A Enigmatic case of Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde. A Conundrum of a Paradox on the center square of a Rubix Cube in the middle of the Chessboard. If these things have made you part of who & what you are, how do you deny the very essence of that which made you? Taking it to the Limit. But the Game we play is NO-LIMIT and it's All or Nothing. Can't stop the Funk. And to even consider slowing down is preposterous. Understands why so many of the Good die Young. Hendrix, Morrison, Cobain, Bruce, Lennon, MLK, JFK... Almost as if this realm is not equipped for an Aura of that magnitude. What's wrong? You can't handle your stuff bro? Shit. In all accumulation from this point to that, it's a Bloody Miracle you're still walking. Hunter, how they Hell did you do it? Oh wait, you blew your own head off. Christ... I'm pretty sure we'll figure this one out as well. If not, I know I got a Rockin * chair saved for me... somewhere down there... But the fight isn't over. Not this one anyways. I've lost many. In the Streets, In the Casino, In the Mind, In the Heart. But this is one fight I'm still fighting and I haven't given up or lost it yet, I'm still fighting and For Fucks Sake I'm giving it everything I've got... - Wiz 

Mystery of Human Language & The Universe

在 這個世界上，沒有人理解你的思維方式 ¿de qué sirve tratar de enseñar lo que sabe потому что никто не знает, что Ваше высказывание любом случае, Ich habe versucht, alles, was ich konnte über dieses Universum zu verstehen と私はいくつかの素晴らしい結論になってきた. Isang araw ang katotohanan ay kilala सब कुछ हमारे आसपास के महान भव्यता. Nó là một phước lành để có thể hiểu những điều này. One day this knowledge I hope will be of use... μέχρι εκείνη την ημέρα, στη συνέχεια. Gaan voort met die reis, rechercher la connaissance, Benedictus Deus .. cui illa 'dii' sint ... ~ The Wizard

 

Public Enemies

Cinema & Scores at its Finest

The Adjustment Bureau 

Four Elections

That was Fun

Wow havnt blogged 4 awhile - cant sleep been battling a going on 2 week bout with Bronchitis. I went to the doctor 2 days ago and told him I had Pneumonia he was like oyeah how do u know. I told him I was a doctor. He said,"If your a doctor why u comin here?" I said," Just kidding u Fuck now tell me whats wrong with me." He said its not Pneumonia its Bronchitis. They he preceded to ask me if I smoke. Holy Shit. better take a seat Doc... anyways I'll be fine in a few days I think.

So anyways whats been up. well these blogs always seem to come from me not being able to sleep. So while I wait for my robotussin cough suppresent to kick in lets see... been kinda down since the government shut down my way of living for the past 5 years, that being Full Tilt Joker*. Been having to find other ways of making income. and since these Indian casinos out in California aren't to keen on hiring convicted felons its been tough. Been to Mexico about half the days this month sports betting on baseball & football. I think I have a semi-full proof plan worked out too already. Bet on the New England Patriots no matter the spread. Even if its against the home team. That was a little amusing watching the game and rooting for the Chargers to choke. Good thing some heavy duty SD fans wernt watching the game with me or I wouldve been having to root a little quieter. Cervesas, Senoritas, holding your own in the streets of Tijuana can be a little amusing at times. Funny to me I guess scary to other people. But I consider everything from here on out pretty much a freeroll having figured I've dodge Grim going on around 5 times now. Other stuff that goes down there is cool chilling with Mariachi on the sides, being hassled by doormen to enter their bars, being hassled by chicas for some "quality time" beating old ladies and small children back when they ask you for a dollar, dancing w/ random senoritas in the smaller bar joints, crossin the border w/ lucha libre masks on and rolling with the homie.  During our recent excursions together I've even given him his street name which is "The Flash." How that came about is another blog i guess.

(bano en Mexico)

Other stuff that been going on outside of Mexico I guess im still trying to find a way out to Vegas but have run into some complications and have to push that date a few several months in the future I guess if any. Might just wait to see if we all survive 2012 than move out there on our I guess 6th freeroll having us all dodged Grim. Oh yeah I was watching Ancient Aliens on the History channel (awesome show by the way confirms everything I've been thinking about for years), and it said the image of the Grim Reaper came to be from earlier times when plagues would hit cities and a mysterious figure would be seen lurking abouts. LOL Grim is an Alien. well Duh. haha

 I dont even know what to call this blog since i just started typing at random. wow if anyone actually reads this they might consider me a few marbles short of a picnic basket. The cucumber always taste better pickled. wait what? who knows thats just how i roll.

Viva La Mexico

BadAzZ weekend in MeXicO - 

Gangster's Paradise

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